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I Can't Sit Still

I don't know about you, but sometimes I get so excited about something new that I want to do ALL THE THINGS and do them RIGHT NOW! But I'm also in a season where I realize that slowing down and taking a breather is a good thing. It's Spring and the sun is shining here in Southern California...I need to remind myself to soak it in and experience renewal rather than just relish in the rush of daily life.



What does love look like to you?

Is it safety, comfort, provision, support?

Is it giggles, stolen kisses, the brush of a hand across a cheek?

Is it commitment and words spoken at an alter?

Is it the thing you thought you’d found, but now realize is something much more?

As a single person, who loves love and can’t wait for a romance of my own, I’ve had plenty of time to dream about what it could be. I’ve also watched countless family and friends fall in love, marry, and begin lives together. Some have struggled, some have failed, some have suffered, some have succeeded in spite of the odds.

I’ve become a watcher, a student of love and relationships. I have edited my vision/dreams/hopes/list of non-negotiables. I have grown. I have learned from others’ mistakes. I know it is not always sunshine, flowers, and farts full of rainbows. I know there can and will be boredom, frustration, chores to be done, exhaustion, spiritual/emotional/intimacy disconnectedness, hurt feelings, sadness, misunderstandings, and the ridiculous inability to read your partner’s mind.

And yet…

I still believe in the GREAT BIG LOVE STORY. 

I believe that God is working on the perfect man for me.

I believe that I will have butterflies in my heart.

I believe that the love I’ve been waiting for will be utterly and amazingly SHOCKING.

I believe that through time and over the years, through the things I’ve learned from watching, there will be hard times. But I believe at the end of my life, I will look back and see a love story so beautiful, I could never have imagined it, nor written it.

And now I sound like Carrie Bradshaw:

Well, maybe it’s time to be clear about who I am. I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.

Call me a space cowboy, call me gangsta of love, call me maurice, if you will. But know this, in spite of everything I’ve seen and no matter what the world tells me, I believe, I BELIEVE in the pompitous of love…and I won’t quit speaking of it or searching for it until I’ve got my arms wrapped around the one for me…and even then, I doubt I’ll stop.


  1. And I believe if you really KNOW all of those things and recognize even the tough stuff you’ve witnessed as part of love, and can weave even THAT into your own love story, you will, for sure, find it and have it forever.

  2. You are brave, girlfriend. And wise.

  3. Your wisdom will get you far, friend. It speaks volumes that you holds these truths close, and your fearless grasp on hope, it inspires me. I believe right alongside you.

  4. Centsational Girl says:

    Amen sister, always always believe !!

  5. love this. your perspective is amazingly witty, fun and honest. It’s hard to find/see that these days amongst single women.
    I didn’t get married until I was 31 and spent years focusing and thinking about the type of love I wanted and you just summed it all up in one post. Brilliant.

    however, we do fart rainbows around here. but only on the nights when there are cookies or cupcakes for dessert and not a lot of outside stresses.

  6. AHHH! I adore you and all those references. Whoa.

    I believe with you! YES YES YES.

  7. Sometimes the wisdom that comes from being an outside observer is invaluable. Keep believing Maurice!

  8. Love this. Love you!

  9. You’re right to keep believing! Your Great Big Love Story is out there, maybe just around the corner.

    This post makes me smile because I couldn’t have put it any better myself.

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